An Unstoppable Force

The greatest villain of all time: devoted to antagonism, loyal to crime, constant lethality, chronic insanity, abiding by chaos, eternally fearless, and perpetually intelligent, or as you probably know him, the Joker. The Joker, with his plots of scoundrel and a mind to execute each tactic, is the definition of a villain, the world’s greatest.
The Joker has only one weakness and this one weakness is the sole reason he is the greatest villain. To be the greatest villain you must have that constant opposing force between you and the protagonist. The Joker has this connection with his weakness; there’s a magnetic force that keeps him intact with it and it will never vanish. The Joker will always and forever be the moth attracted to the porch light. His weakness? The Batman. He needs the Batman, and the Batman needs him. It is an eternal fight simply because they will not kill each other. In the movie, The Dark Knight the Joker says to Batman, “This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object.” Implying they will forever battle.
His weakness being his biggest strength makes for a comprehensive villain. The Joker simply has no true personality of his own. He can be anyone he wants to be and this is why he is able to manipulate a vast amount of people. The Joker has no empathy. He is responsible for thousands of deaths, crimes, and drastic damage but feels no remorse. Self-centered and egotistical, the Joker will commit crimes for his own benefit. The Joker is a masochist; he enjoys chaos. He pushes his victims to the edge and finds great pleasure in his victims’ last moments. He believes it is then that people show you their true colors. The Joker is mad. He is insane. His mental state is demented and this is the reason he is a great villain. He is a villain with a constant motive to create evil chaos and he’ll do it with a smile.
The Joker is exceptionally intelligent. His plots and schemes are well thought out and his methods are unpredictable. He is a mad genius. When facing authority his twisted psychotic logic helps him slip out from any situation. No one thinks like the Joker, making his mind seem kaleidoscopic. Skilled in chemistry and engineering, the Joker is an expert with explosives. The Joker is also computer literate and he uses his intelligence to his advantage. Being an insane genius, the Joker is able to fulfill his passionate love for destruction. This is his only passion, his only desire. He does not fancy money, or material things. He lives for disorder.
The Joker is undeniably one of the greatest villains of all time. He is definitely and without a doubt the top dog. He is the villain who surpasses all villains. The villain you can’t help but want to understand. The villain that draws you in and keeps you wanting more. The villain who set the standard so high, no villain will ever top it. He is unquestionably brilliant, passionately chaotic, profoundly diabolical, immensely acidic, atrociously wicked, savagely brutal, and evidently authentic, or as I like to call him, the greatest villain of all time, the Joker.


Sources:
Background information gained from these sites and also a sense of who the joker really is. Nothing actually taken from these sites.

1.) "Joker (comics)." Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia..
2.) “Biography for The Joker (Character) from The Dark Knight (2008)” IDMb, The Internet Movie Database.< http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0000180/bio>.

An Uncontrollable Smothering

Of my seventeen years on earth, I can say, that the year of 2008 was most definitely the worst year of my life. I was bombarded, to the highest degree, with amounts of issues I couldn’t handle. By “couldn’t handle”, I mean I fell apart. I was a solid dispersed in a liquid. It was a strange occurrence. Almost like when you take corn starch and add water. You can roll it into a solid ball with your hands and the second you release the ball it disperses into a liquid. I couldn’t keep my shape. I was contorted, mentally. The problems, alone, weren’t ones I couldn’t handle. But the volume of incidents that flooded my life, in a matter of a year, were what brought my life to its lowest point.
It wasn’t accumulative. I was smothered with a number of problems. Let’s say the starting point was the end of my sophomore year and I finally pulled it together by the end of summer 2009. I was in love. I spent every waking day with my boyfriend while I maintained a 3.6 gpa at a private school, held a job for over a year, and danced on a very eminent competition team. I was happy and satisfied with my life. After a year my boyfriend and I ended. He was my first love and naturally all hell broke loose. This is where the smothering began.
Mr.Bettin, an art teacher at Judge, noticed something seriously wrong with me. I remember on the last day of school he said this to me, “Heal over the summer okay?” I didn’t heal, I got worse. My entire summer consisted of me in a state of mortification. I was completely and seriously, devastated. I came back to school my junior year still a complete and utter mess. I developed a case of hypersomnia. Think of insomnia, then the complete opposite that’s hypersomnia. I couldn’t keep a high gpa, I dropped all the AP courses I planned to take and Mr. Bettin barely let me take his advanced art class. I missed an excessive amount of school and over the summer I dislocated my elbow so I could no longer lifeguard and so, I quit my job. I didn’t have many friends at the beginning of the summer either because when I was with my boyfriend he was my only real friend. I weeded away all my other friends. I had to rebuild friendships and create new ones; the problem with this was my views on friends completely changed after I met my boyfriend. I found myself constantly comparing people to him. I always felt he was a better friend than anyone could ever be and it made it hard for me to make new friends.
I developed some form of depression. My mom and I no longer got along and the rules she set for me were diminished. I hated all her loser boyfriends, and I felt like she wasn’t doing her part as a mom and I let her know it. It became an enormous problem. It escaladed down into my decision to move out. I packed my things before I knew my grandparents would even let me live with them. Being grandparents, of course they let me live with them. I was in for it though. It was like an infomercial. You think you’re going to get something better than what you have but turns out the thing breaks. Living with my grandparents was completely different than just visiting them. Let’s just say it wasn’t the brightest idea to move there. My grandparents forced me to quit my dance team because of my grades. There’s one thing in the world I love more than anything and that is dancing. My grades didn’t get any better, they got worse.
The family fights were outrageous, so outrageous we started seeing a Shrink. My mom, grandparents, the Shrink, and I all in a room, mad at each other. The sessions never went too well and once my mom and grandparents felt insulted by the shrink and we no longer saw him. He did prescribe medication for my depression but I always forgot to take my pill so who knows if it would’ve ever helped.
So here I was depressed, mortified, a hypersomniac, a ruthless teenager, and still issue upon issue dog piled on top of me. I ended up moving back to my mom’s house once we were on good terms and that was the starting point of my healing. Slowly but surely I began to accept the break-up, regain my friends, be on good terms with my family, recover from hypersomnia, depression gone, job gained, and I felt content about things. I still have not fully recovered from that year. Junior year is your most important year and it happened to be the year I fell apart. I’ve grown. It was the worst year I’ve had but probably the most important. Honestly, I’m scared this state of happiness might be temporary. On a positive note, my grades are now higher than ever and I am moving on. It’s natural to be scared that it will all happen again but I am stronger; I can handle a lot more under my belt. I won’t ever disperse into a liquid again. I will always strive to keep my shape solid.

I love meekakitty

soooo much.

enough said.

This is a Non-Smoking Area

To lay it all out on the table, I'm seeing Saxon. Simple as that, I'm seeing him. We're not "together", meaning we're not official. I'm fine with that though and I know he is too. We haven't really talked about being in a relationship and I think it's because we both know that what we have right now is fine; and if it continues down this loverly path, our relationship will be deserving of a title. This whole waiting experience is making me truly appreciate relationships. It's never been this way for me, I've never really had to wait. It was always, "I like you, you like me, you're my girlfriend, and I'm your boyfriend" type of thing. Waiting makes you want it, it makes you think, and it gives you time to contemplate the whole thing. Having it handed to you isn't the same as earning it, deserving it. Having a title to our relationship isn't so important to me, what's important is that our relationship is a good one. The important thing is that I know he's mine, with or without a title. In all being said, I've quit taking bong rips, and quit smoking blunts, because I care about what he thinks, and I don't want us to end over some teenage nirvana.

"There's something you do, that got me walkin' on the moon"
-The-Dream

Break D O W N

had one today. but once I hung out with my boo everything was controllable.
All in all things are falling into place. i'm lovin what we have.
♥

What if?

I guess you can say it's been awhile since I've actually liked someone. I say actually because liking someone in the past year hasn't gotten to the extent of ACTUAL, until now. I'm attracted to certain things, certain people, certain aspects, and he seems to possess a lot of the things I'm attracted to. I'm not used to this. Not at all. THIS hasn't happened in so long and not only that but this is different. It's new, it's fresh, it's something I can't seem to get enough of. It's been about a month since we've been seeing each other and I'm afraid I'm going to have to wait a long while before I know if anything will BE. He has the opportunity to go out of state and take a job that will pay him extremely well. The problem here is that he'll be gone for four months and if he decides to go he leaves about mid April. That gives me about a month to continue seeing him and if he decides to leave I'm going to be left with the continuing question of "what if?." I mean what if he does stay? Would it? Could it become anything? and if he goes do I wait for him because I see potential in our relationship? or if he goes do I still talk to him but do my own thing? or do i completely shut him out of my life and say nice seeing you? What would make me happy? What would make him happy? There are so many questions, so many possibilities, and I hate that this is so complicated. I hope this is all for the better, and in the end we're both happy. We deserve it.

Sphynx

I am absolutely crazy about these cats. I've never been a big fan of cats so this is weird but for some reason I am IN LOVE with these cats. I want one so bad :)

The Tenth Sign of the Zodiac

I'm thinking about my first tattoo being the sign of the capricorn or a sugar skull. I'm not quite sure which one I want first but I'll def. have them both. The capricorn is a person with drive, a person who wants to drag things to completion and accomplish goals. Not only do I always want to finish what I start I want to finish it with efficiency. Lately I've been having seious procrastionation issues and the fact that I need to finish things in order to be satisfied has become a problem. I've been researching a lot about capricorns and because we capricorns are so ambitious sometimes we overwhelm ourselves with goals. We set high standards and sometimes put too much on our plate. I'm going to try and pace myself out better, be in control of my situations. haha be IN CONTROL, so capricorn of me. Funnystuff. ♥

Valentines Shmalentines. . .

I'm glad I didn't completely spill my guts on that last post. I've had a change of thought. I did make it. I don't miss HIM, nor do I care what he's doing with his life. I miss the freedom of being comfortable with someone. I miss having someone be MINE. I've been thinking about this a lot lately and something made me think twice. I'm over him, completely. I'm not over the fact that I haven't found anyone special, and until then I'm going to have to be okay with that. And I think I'm going to be just fine. It's okay to do stupid things and it's okay to trust your gut feeling because although it may get you into a mess, you always learn something. I'm okay with the fact that I went to his house when I knew he didn't want me there. It doesn't bother me that I've called him a numerous amount of times, only to be shut off. I don't care that his girlfriend would call me out and tell me all this ISH. If it weren't for any of that I wouldn't realize that I really don't need him. I don't need any man for that matter. Oh but I would love to find someone special. It's only a matter of time. I can wait. I can be patient. I'm done dwelling over this stupid relationship. I'm freaking FINE, and I know that now. I'm absolutely positive I'm okay. They say "You don't get better, 'til you're worse" and trust me, It's gotten worse and I did hit rock bottom, but I'm better. I'm doing okay.

frick, frick, FRICK

It's better to talk about things. It's better to get it out. So I'm going to just say it, regardless of who i think is going to read this. It needs to come out.

Last year, in two days, will be the "one year" anniversary of Alex and I. We broke up about a week before the actual anniversary and about three weeks after it he was with Amanda. It was all too overwhelming and for the last year i guess i haven't really gotten over it. I mean, I'm no where near as bad as I used to be, after it happened, but I am still very much heart broken. I just want answers. I don't really know why he broke up with me and I don't really know how he felt about it all. I'm so very confused. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. This valentines I'm going to spend it with the person who is truly there for me. The person I love the very most. Analise. If we weren't cousins and I was lesbian, I'd be all over dat. ♥. haha frick.

Exhausted

I can't even describe how tired i've been lately. It's like i haven't slept in the longest time. and i haven't. I haven't had a good night sleep in so long and I think it's really starting to affect me. I'm overwhelmed with homework and I hate that i don't have the time to do it. I can't function when I'm tired so I just lay there, yet I can't fall asleep either. I've been to the doctors and I've spoken with them about this whole sleep issue. The doctor prescribed me pills to help me sleep but I guess my mom never got around to getting me the pills. I dunno, I don't want to take pills to help me sleep i just want to GO TO SLEEP. I'll do some research later. I'm in school. This class sucks. anyone with any advice on this sleep thing? Let me know.

My Dream Last Night:
I don't remember much but I do remember that some photographer was taking pictures of me and I was wearing a wife beater and some jeans. My make-up was all done up and this guy was taking amazing pictures of me. My mom and I got to see the pictures on a this guys computer and once my mom saw the pictures she just started laughing hysterically. I don't know why she was laughing and I don't remember if I said anything to her, but I do remember I was really offended by her laughing.

THIS TRIPS ME OUTTTTT. . .

Thedreamzone.com interpretations of some keywords in my dream

Computer: How are you computing certain information?

Laughter/Laugh/Laughing: Joy, happiness. Laughter is the best medicine. Don't take things so seriously.

Makeup: May mean you need to make up with someone or even yourself. Can also mean a need or desire to hide who you really are, afraid to face the truth.

Man/Men/Guy: Your masculine self, the part of your personality that is assertive, takes action, makes decisions and makes money. If an unknown man is attacking you it is because you are ignoring your assertive male self. If an unknown man is attracted to you then you are beginning to recognize and unite your male qualities into your life.

Mother/Mom: Unless there is a current issue with your mother, then your mother in a dream will stand in for your ability to know what's best, to nurture yourself and others. Your maternal instincts. If you are a mom, then your mother symbolizes your own role as mom. If your mom is dying or hurt in the dream, examine your own mothering skills. Also pay attention to the advice Mom gives in your dream because it is coming from your own intuition.

Pictures/Photos/Photo Album: How you picture yourself or a particular situation. Could be your dream saying, 'Get the picture?!' Perhaps time to look at your past. Pictures are also memories. Your dream may be telling you to be aware of the present because whether it becomes a good or a bad memory is often up to you.

See: If you can't see in your dream then there is something in waking life you aren't seeing for what it really is or you are turning a blind eye toward something.

Months. . .

Months have past, and I haven't been on this forever. What a shame. Recently I've just been hanging out, mostly partying. This has got me into quite some trouble, but you live and you learn. eh? Right now I'm just trying to focus on school;Keep my priorities straight. Recently I've been struggling in the Men department. In a nut shell, I'm simply done looking for someone. I'm tired of trying to find someone who could be anywhere near to anything like my ex was. I'm sick of comparing and I'm sick of thinking this guy could be "the one." pfft. The one? Ya I'm an idiot. So I've come to the conclusion that boys will no longer be something I chase, but rather something that may come along. And if they should come along, I won't get attached so easily, I'll let them play that role.